*sigh*

i havent had much of an opportunity to take art worthy pictures...all the pictures ive been taking lately are of one person...ME. GAHHHHHH! i had a short shoot the other day with a friend, but all the pictures turned out like SHIT. grr.

so since nobody has time anymore, i guess i'll just be posting stuff of me.

normally i dont edit my pictures. i dont like the idea of a picture not being worth enough to stand on its own. however, when i was making animated pictures, i decided what the hell, i'll edit a batch. so i neon colored a couple pics, played around with some effects, and was just having fun, when i came across an awesome little site. i uploaded one of my all time fav pics of myself to it and started a lil this, a lil that, and BOOM. i got a NICE picture. i felt guilty about it at first because i thought it was a good picture to start with. but after seeing the edit...wow. i love it ten times more. i'll post some of the main edited ones, and maybe i'll blog some of the awesome avis i made, but they're all basically the same picture, which is vanity.

beyond all that life has been pretty dramatic for the most part, and i despise it. this week is "my week" seeing as my parents did NOT insist i come with them to camp and left me home alone. and no, i havent had the typical "high school party". ive entertained a few friends, but for the most part have just been sleeping, creating, and messing around on a computer :3 i've been watching a couple of ooold 80's films and i absolutely love them!!! i'm designing a pair of gloves after the red leather fringe gloves in "some kind of wonderful".

lately, due to circumstances i will refrain from mentioning, i have lost my appetite. this is EXTREMELY weird for a fat kid. literally, every day i drink pepsi, have maybe 1 sandwich or a bowl of rice, and thats it for the entire day. i feel the hunger pains, but its like i no longer care about them, they arent ruling me. last time i felt like this it was due to a chemical, yet im sitting here sober and not hungry. i have no idea what is wrong with me, but while it's here i'm sticking with it. if i lose weight over this i will take back everything i said about god and prayers XD

my myspace has taken a HUGE leap, and now that i have music features on my page *finally* i hope to raise the level to some of the underground bands i love. although some are no longer underground. i have loved Tickle Me Pink for a little while now, but now everyone's talking about them! their music vids are AMAZING.

i just realized this journal entry is pointless XD

anywhoo in conclusion i am trying my hardest to get the vlog (yes, VLOG, as in video blog) going, but since i only work with a phone, it is difficult. i cant email vids any longer than 30 seconds...grrr... so its a LONG process to piece them together...plus i want to edit them so they're not so meaningless...ugh. if anyone knows of any good free video editing software, please, by all means, comment me.

i luv chu all! mwah!